So I’m sitting at the computer wondering how I got to this point in my life? I did everything, my good little girl self was told. I ate my veggies, never talked to strangers and always crossed my legs while sitting. I played by the rules; I got married- by those very same rules. I played house, or tried to for a long time, especially after we had kids. We had that life– that life I was told since I was a little girl was the one I should covet and work towards. And now this life, this picture has faded, and here I am a single mom who spends her nights online looking at pictures of strangers in front of me, trying to weed out just who might be a match and my only thought is… I’m gonna be alone forever!
Where are the single, good looking guys online? Why is everyone hiding behind sunglasses or a huge hat? And what is it with the group shots as your profile pic? Which one Are you?? Are these men hiding a facial deformity that I would NEVER notice in person?
After scrolling through my 200 “matches” ( I say the word matches in quotations as, based on my past experiences,Â I wouldn’t dare set up my worst frenemy with one of these potential suitors)Â I finally manage to weed out one or two possibilities from this seeming cesspool of single men who apparently all have a predilection for sunsets.
And even as I choose to respond to two of them , in my head, I’m already pleading, “potential date please do not lie about your age or put a pic up from 10 years ago! I WILL notice these discrepancies in person and in doing so you are just wasting my time and yours. ”
I want to believe there is a guy out there who looks exactly like his online picture, because I KNOW I do…. am I insane for wanting or even expecting this?Does itÂ even exist?